The Story of the Guardian Angels

 Awww I have to share this with you!This is a very touching story and probably fit in the current situation of some people's life and big events that have happened.I got this story from an E-mail of my friend while ago but I just read it today and became very thoughtful.

So here's the story: Once upon a time there were two travelling angels who wanted to have a break.Therefore they stayed overnight at the house of a rich family. This family was very impolite and refused to let the angels sleep in their guestroom.Instead of this the angels got a small place in the cold cellar of the house. As they laid them down on the cold floor, the older angel discovered a hole in the wall of the cellar and repaired it. As the younger angel asked him "why?", the older one answered him, "Things are not always what they supposed to be..."The next night they slept over at the house of a very poor old couple, who were very hospitable and friendly.After the couple shared the food they had with the two angels, they let them sleep in their bed. where they had a comfortable sleep.When the sun rose the next day, the two angels found the couple, crying. The only "thing" they had, who brought them their income died on the field: It was their precious cow.The younger angel got angry and asked the older angel why he let that happen to them. "The first man and his family owned everything and you helped them" he claimed. "The couple had just a very few things and you let their cow die on the field!" "Things are not always what they supposed to be!", said the older angel."When we slept in the cold cellar of the rich family, I noticed that there was gold in the hole. And because the host was filled with greed and didn't want to share his fortune, I sealed the hole so that he won't be able to find his gold. When we slept in the bed of the poor family's house that night, the angel of death came to take the woman away. I gave him the cow instead.Things are not always what they supposed to be!"

Sometimes things will always turn out differently if they don't turn out the way they should. If you have faith, you just have to trust that things will turn out positively for you.You might not notice the positive effects but as time goes by you finally will.Many people come into our life and go away pretty soon.Some people become friends of ours and stay for a long time, leaving beautiful footprints in our hearts when they go. And we are very similiar to them because we become friends.

Yesterday is history.Tomorrow is a mystery.Today is a present. That's why it's called: Present. Life is something special. That's why: Live every moment to the fullest, life is not a rehearsal! PS: I never really noticed the fact that Present also means present (as in gift) [at least not on purpose].

 Dear Self,

Stay strong. We still have a lot of battles to take. We still have a lot of struggles to endure. We will soon achieve the glory days of all our sacrifices. Let's not waste our time to people who don't treat us right. 

It's you and me against the world. We can do it!

Sincerely,

Me.

Temple thoughts

 Crossing boarders meant crossing boundaries of faith. 

To witness entirely different religious practices demanded huge respect of their chosen path and appreciation of my own faith. 

This led me to an introspection of my beliefs, how I cling to it and how I manifest it daily. 

And the more I observe and immerse, the more questions fill my head,,aren’t we all searching for something greater than us? 🙏🙏🙏

sometimes it last in love, but sometimes it hurts instead....

while i was sitting on my station,doing my work,you suddenly stand beside me...a familiar scenario that you usually do before whenever you wait for me during lunch,break or when the work is over. well, its been about 7mons since i have seen that scenario...and now,it felt good to feel that feeling again.i thought you are going to ask me out or walk with me as we go home.but no,instead its a bad news."im tendering my resignation immediately" suddenly i see black colors,i cant hear anything,and my eyes just wanted to cry...i always knew that you will be resigning,well i hear it from my friends,your friends and everyone but you never really tell me--straight to my face...so now,your showing me the paper...i pretended reading it but i cant really understand what it says. so this is it...the closure that i was waiting for for years....its coming into reality... he's really leaving me!!! i always say to friends and people that i have moved on although its not really true...there's still a part of me that will dream that one day you will come back and ask for forgiveness and asking me to be with you again....well i think now it will never happened...

three years and 6mons.....that was the best years and months of my life....i never thought i would find you....you just came from nowhere...and suddenly, im inlove! i was mending a broken heart,when you suddenly came....i remember the first time i met you,it was 2am,your phone rang with a song "always be my baby"....i suddenly heard it,came to you and say "meron ka nyan? pabluetooth naman!!! ang tagal kong hinahanap yang song na yan!!" and then you ask for my number,i did ask for your number aswell...after a couple of days,my phone is ringing,your asking me how am i? and then the rest was history.....

the first year was really the happiest.....you have showered me with love and attention that i feel im the luckiest girl on earth...everything looks fine,everything looks perfect....
the second year was kinda rocky....thats the part where we really know each other on the point that i get comfortable waking up with you in the morning and sleeping with you at night...we get so comfortable together that sometimes we tend to forget the love that we have for each other. one day we're okay, the other day we're not...but still we manage to get through because of LOVE.
the third year was the worse....we broke up...get back again...broke up again...get back again...until we finally decided to be friends...BESTFRIENDS...guess we are the perfect definition of the phrase "friends with benefits!"(not in the greener idea ok)...untill the time you decided to find someone else,i did aswell but mine did not last,bec i still long for you,,,,yours didnt last either but you decided to find someone else again.....and again...and again....while your still looking for miss right,im right beside you,supporting you,,,understanding you....hoping someday,you realize that the one your looking for is just at your side....but like what they say "merong hangganan ang lahat"....i got tired of waiting...i got fed up of understanding.....
and so i decided to avoid you....go on with my life.....but theres still a little bit of me hoping someday, you'll return......and yes you did....you talk to me again,,,,but not bec you wanted to be with me again....but because you wanted to leave.......PERMANENTLY.....

"Rassel alis na ko,,,,nagpapirma lang ako nito eh..." ...and so i get back to myself again....."ok, ingat ka...." ...those were the last words i utter before you left my sight......after all this months of waiting and wanting to talk to you,,,thats all that i can say :(

there goes my ONE GREAT LOVE.....im never going to see him again (maybe)..... its ok....he have thought me a lot about love...how to give more and expect less....how to be unselfish and kind...how to be understanding and not demanding....i guess i will never love like i did with him but i think im smarter now....and a lot stronger.....and i hope someday, he will find the one that he has been looking for....as for me, well as the song goes "never mind i find someone like you...." but i hope when that time comes, it will last forever.. :)

it was not the happy ending that i have dream of for the longest time,,,but it was the bittersweet ending that have set both our hearts free :)

the story of us

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us How we met and the sparks flew instantly People would say they're the lucky ones I used to know my spot was next to you Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat 'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on Oh, a simple complication Miscommunications lead to fallout So many things that I wish you knew So many walls up, I can't break through Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room And we're not speaking And I'm dying to know, is it killing you Like it's killing me I don't know what to say since a twist of fate When it all broke down And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now How'd we end up this way? See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy And you're doing your best to avoid me I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us How I was losing my mind when I saw you here But you held your pride like you should have held me Oh I'm scared to see the ending Why are we pretending this is nothing? I'd tell you I miss you, but I don't know how Oh I'm scared to see the ending Why are we pretending this is nothing? I'd tell you I miss you, but I don't know how This is looking like a contest Of who can act like they care less But I liked it better when you were on my side The battle's in your hands now But I would lay my armor down If you'd say you'd rather love then fight So many things that you wish I knew But the story of us might be ending soon Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room And we're not speaking And I'm dying to know, is it killing you Like it's killing me I don't know what to say since a twist of fate When it all broke down And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now Now, now And we're not speaking And I'm dying to know, is it killing you Like it's killing me? And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate 'Cause we're going down And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now The end

Learning the HARD WAY

On the verge of anger and depression there comes realization.

I never hated heights. But I did. Yeah, for less than 3 minutes I hated it and cursed it to death. It was an Owww-eeeemm-geee ride of my life. I hated heights but I conquered it. I faced the fear.

I have always been the NICEST-GIRL-IN-THE-WORLD. But for a while, I was not. Yeah, for almost 3 weeks, I became evil and hated people close to my heart. I uttered unexpected words because of angst. You can’t blame me; I was judged and blamed for something I did not do. And for these moments, I was full of pain. I even posted letter of rage that I cannot undo. I became wicked but I endured the pain. I let go and then back again, I’m the NICEST-GIRL-IN-THE-WORLD.

I have always been selfless. Selfless, to the extent that I always give more than what is asked for. I submit 100% of myself to everyone. But now, I want to be selfish. Selfish not greedy. Self – ish.. I want to love myself more so I can love others too. It will be tough but I know that to think of myself and my welfare first, I will be able to extend it to other people. It will be a long process.

I quoted from Father Jun’s homily: “Bitawan mo ang lahat ng sama ng loob dahil ang buhay ay dapat umuusad”. Sapul.

Why should I be bitter for what I am experiencing right now when in fact there are lots of people who are suffering more yet surviving?

I would like to mention, Francis Magalona’s happy battle. I was so inspired with his life and his battle. His strength to endure the emotional stress of having had all the treatment and also the pain of every shots of medicine, every chemotherapy, every bone marrow aspiration. It was a very well lived life. And though, he died of young age, his life and his music will always live on. And we will always remember his baby face as we listen to his recordings.

Tonight, I wish that this will be the last time I will be blogging because of the pain I had for the last few weeks. I am praying for those people to let go of everything that had happen and become what is used to be. Tonight, I wish nothing but serenity of my mind. Yesterday was done, today is more important and tomorrow is full of hope.

Like Father said, I want to exhale the hurting and inhale back the goodness.

Tomorrow, I will be wishing for strength. Strength to carry on and to face whatever challenges that will come my way. I will be stronger than I was before. For tomorrow as I wake up, I will rise and be better and not bitter for myself.

flying

there's something about being up in the sky that just sends me up higher.

i love being on airplanes, watching land and everything on it start looking like Barbie people, shrinking into Polly Pocket folk, become little ants and eventually, simply fade away. i like how the scope of what you can see gets bigger and bigger as you go up higher. in a sense, being up in the sky makes feel sooo big that in the end, i always feel so humbled, so small. am i making sense?
i like how i feel so light going up in the air as if the land i was leaving contained everything that weighed on my chest and i was flying away from it. i like how my heart crunches just a little bit and a big bit everytime i leave land behind.
land is what i truly know. i am a child of the earth. i was born upon soil, and my connection with its spiritually grounding and humbling nature and everything that resides upon it is one that always pulls a little on my heartstrings everytime we say goodbye. its a bit like saying goodbye to my mother's womb, i reckon.

but i love the sky, i do. on land, you think about how alone you are and it doesn't quite sink in because there is already too much to see, that more often that not, ,what should have felt like being ALONE seems more like LONELINESS.
up in the sky where only those with wings can float upon its waves of white puff, you feel alone but somehow, loneliness does not quite creep in. loneliness is a feeling based on UN-loneliness, i think; while alone is... just alone. up in the sky where you are nothing to nobody, you have no one left to be but yourself. i like that.

i love the sky because its the closest i get to everything, really. i love the sky because its the closest i get to the stars, to the infinite. i love the sky because, as i leave all the people whom i have ever interacted with, people who have formed big and small opinions of how i am as a person, its the closest i actually get to



ME

MATUROSITY: alimango sa may dalampasigan.parang si giraffe sa quicksand..

Is life just getting sadder or am I just getting harder to please?

What’s so great about bubbles? I wish I liked anything as much as kids like bubbles. It’s totally sad; their smiling faces point out your inability to enjoy anything. That part in knocked up sums up how I’m feeling.

I’m miserable...(kinda lang naman..) Mainly because I’m not where I planned to be right now. Gahhh! I know I don’t have the right to whine because there are people who are in a much more miserable state. But it’s just really sad how life, fate, destiny or whatever energy counters you from getting to your dream and being happy.

Life is like the waves, and I’m an angry and stubborn little crab that holds onto anything and pulls itself to get to where it wants to be. But the waves so much powerful and it pushes the crab to another direction. The crabs getting tired and is thinking of just going with the flow.

Because of life, because of certain circumstances, we get stuck somewhere (or we just go with the flow). We think we can just accept the situation in the meantime, but sooner or later, we get so used to it, we just settle for it. And our dream just…dies.

Hope this crab will still hold on. If ever it lets go, hope the waves will take it to the same shore not too far away from where the crab originally wanted to be, para walking distance lang.....baka mapagod kasi sya kapag masyadong malayo eh...

frozen....

After the last light I broke down, crying. I must have been in shock, I never experienced something like this. I talked to a fulltimeworker and he told me his interpretation, which calmed me down. He told me that he believes this was a sign of God, watching over us and what we were doing. A sign that we were not alone, that God was with you. Later an Ate told me that she saw the lights too, and told me as well that they were tiny hot-air baloons. Whatever those things were, hot-air baloons or some strange energy is not important, still for me it was clear: God tested my trust in Him. God gave me the opportunity to reflect over my faith again. God showed me that I still lack of trust in Him. That was my main realization. I also realized that life must go on. It simply has to. With every change comes another chance for us to develop. I was demotivated, but again God showed me that I have to stop standing there and staring into my wonderful past, but that I should continue my way, be brave and ready to experience wonderful things. I should not mourn about what I lost, but dance with joy for what is to be expected. But my past shouldn’t be forgotten. It’s just ... You stop. Turn around. Look and reminise. And then continue your way full of trust in our precious Lord. So be it. Amen.

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Dear God,

I have been on a constant battle with my memories this year. I only wish that I can extinguish parts of it for they are making me regret all of it. I do not request for my own power, only for the task of elimination to be completed from your end.

See, more than two years ago, you planned for us to meet, me and him. Now he left me, and now I struggle. Every time I wake up, I wish I hadn't. Time will not heal this, because it simply can't. Again, see, you made me most forgiving, most patient. You made me always, always consider the good of others, with the least amount of doubt. Now, since I can't completely reconcile the facts -that I have already done my part, and waited for about a thousand hours for nothing to happen- I ask that a tampering on my library of things-remembered be done the soonest.

Take away the moments of happiness, spare nothing from those life-chapters. They must as valuable as television show scripts. We never physically spent those together anyway.

Please do not offer an alternative, and please do not make me different from my easily-fooled self. Just erase the cause of the misery of this recent past, the thousand promises broken, each forgiven by this selfless soul. You must know that I don't love him anymore, after almost half a year of throwing questions at absent ears....

When you've made good with my favor, do not stop me from making the same mistake again with him....


yours truly,
Rassel

♥The saddest song ever written.. And the most beautiful..♥

goodbye my old friend...till we meet again :(

Goodbye is the hardest word im going to say since i will be leaving the best thing in my life...i will be leaving the one thing that I never thought I could live without...today,im going to say goodbye to the bestest,best friend I ever had...We have been together through thickness and thin...we have been together through my ups and my downs...we have been together when Im sad,when Im happy...we are together when i cry my heart out or when i laugh so hard...it was my only companion whenever im alone,whenever im with my friends partying or eating out....now,,,,i think i will never get to be with it for a very long time....

...When I started my journey to a new healthier me I knew that I had the eventual goal of cutting all pop out of my life ...I was horribly addicted to the caffeine in my dear old friend: COCA-COLA...I have struggled off and on with this addiction over 28 years…but for some reason I have never been able to give it up for….me.

...this morning,i got the results from our annual physical exam..and as expected,i have URINARY TRACT INFECTION...but worse, i have pyuria (refers to urine which contains pus. Defined as the presence of 4 or more neutrophils per high power field of unspun, voided mid-stream urine),from that day on,I said to myself...as much as i can avoid it, i will never have the sweet taste of coke again....

...I am not saying that I will not have a single drop of coke in the coming days or weeks (well hell im only human,sometimes i cant help it out) but I feel the end is nearer than I originally thought....

goodbye my sweet heaven...goodbye my best friend...goodbye my happiness...goodbye my coca-cola....

...till we meet again one day....and i promise,that will be indeed, the sweetest day of my life......

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

"Behind every man...

...is a WOMAN ^_^

PISAY

Pisay is a heartwarming tale of a group of high school students, coming from different backgrounds, but all brilliant, all studying at the Philippine Science High School. What I liked most about the movie was its effective nostalgia. It may be that the movie was set in the 80's (when I was but a wee little baby), but it's theme's captured the essence of being in Pisay. But it's greatest asset may also well be it's worst flaw: It may tend to alienate non-Pisay people. I felt the audience deserved a tad bit more development of the characters. It becomes difficult to sympathize with characters you hardly know.

I loved that the kids acted very naturally, although there were some awkward moments, some dead air, it was forgivable. Dr. Casas was very effective. The other adult actors, however, (I'm not sure if this was intentional) spoke in a "theater" voice, like a sing-song, Batibot style. I found it unnatural, even highlighted by the fact that the child actors were very natural with theirs ("Egis erp!")

The storyline was flawless. I found it strummed a different chord at every chapter. The freshman year told of a budding relationship ripped apart by a teacher, the sophomore year told of a small town boy kicked-out of Pisay for failing Geometry (and moving on to become #1 in the school he moved to!), the third year featured a girl who had move to The Netherlands because she and her parents were wanted by the government, and finally, the senior year which featured a morally ambiguous research project, a theater loving science school senior, and a terminally ill genius.

I was flooded with memories while I was watching the movie. I was especially moved by the first scene where they found out he got in Pisay.

I can definately relate to the movie not because i graduated at Phil science highschool but simply because of the highschool life those little kid have experienced....i can definately say that highschool life is the best phase of my life,,,i think other would agree with me as well :)

letter from the most prestigious critic's group in the world:

"Pisay is a beautiful film, simple and sophisticated, direct and campy, one that gets better and better as it goes along. From the evidence gathered, the praise is valid for Filipino cinema as a whole, which is undergoing something of a renaissance.”

by Emmanuel Burdeau Cahiers Du Cinema

can't figure

"EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON." That is what i used to tell myself every time somethings not good is happening to me, pretty nice thing to say to your self, huh?

Well everything has reason that is for sure, 'coz why are we going to let things happen anyway.

I am 28 years old, graduated from college, have a job and pretty much alone. I used to have friends... like friends friends, the people you have plans for like forever: no one leaves each other, no one gets left behind, nothing can make you apart, more like a sister and a colleague as well, something like that, but "used to", well i know you get it. Promises are meant to be broken thats what i learned, there are things that will definitely make you apart, and theres no such thing as forever or eternity for that matter. People change and i can do nothing about that, even I changed. One mistake can make a great impact on friendship, especially when friends are too weak to handle everything, i will admit I am WEAK, weak as a twig that can easily broken. We didn't survived the test, we were defeated, that is what i got to face, that is what i need to accept. I still have friends, yeah! so don't think that I'm that bad to have no one left except my freakin' self. I do have friends and i love them, i sure do and i know they love me too. I never really tried to live on my own not until now that I'm working... far from my family, far from my friends. That is why i feel so alone... The problem with me is that I'm too clingy, too dependent... Well that is the consequence that i have to live, 'coz people got to live their own lives too, the world does not revolve around one person, the world does not revolve around me. And whether i like or not i have to live on my own. I have to learn to be with my own, to eat alone, to decide for myself. And all this, because everything happens for a reason.

I am 28 and i don't know what is going on with my life. Have a job, yeah i do have a job but I'm hating it every single day. And now i don't know what to do. I'm not moving forward, i feel that I'm stuck, stuck for the rest of my life, if i don't do anything about it. Since i started this job i noticed that everything fall out of place, everyone changed, and it is not pretty anymore. Now I'm torn on to whether to STAY and get paid but not happy at all or GO and be unemployed but free from all the things that I'm running away from and makes me sad.

I am 28 and I've got zillions of questions inside my head, and any time soon i feel that it will explode. A lot of things had happened, why those things happened? why me? why not somebody else? am I a bad person? am I a bad friend? too weak? did i kill someone? Is too much sleeping a sin? a lot of questions that no one can answer, not even me.

I am 28 but i feel that I'm living like I am a hundred years. Is this the part where i need to tell myself "Everything happens for a reason"?

yes it was......aaaaawwwww!!!

IT'S REALLY HARD TO SHOW EVERYBODY HOW YOU FEEL, SCARED OF LETTING THEM KNOW WHAT'S BOTHERING YOU..

SOMETIMES LYING WOULD BE AN EXCELLENT REMEDY TO OVERSHADOW THE TEARS FROM YOUR EYES..

YOU HIDE THE PAIN BY SMILING, YOU HIDE THE TEARS BY LAUGHING..

YOU HIDE THE SADNESS BY LYING..SOMETIMES YOU JUST WANT TO TRADE YOUR LIFE JUST TO EXPERIENCE A MINUTE OF HAPPINESS THAT WILL REALLY CHANGE EVERYTHING..

BUT THAT'S WHAT MAKES IT IRONIC, THE MORE YOU SEEK FOR HAPPINESS, THE MORE YOU LOOSE IT..

leap of faith

this was written by my highschool crush reyner malonzo...it was touching..i know what he is going through right now and im deeply sorry for him...for kuya reyner, life must go on..thank you for being the one who introduce me to the power of writing..remember my favorite verse: PHILIPPIANS 4:13 "i can do everything through HIM who strengthens me"..everything is going to be ok...

leap of faith by reyner malonzo

My company's Human Resources Department asked me if could give a testimonial for Future Search seminar entitled "Leap fo Faith". This is what I have written and shared on that day, April 16, 2010.

Have you ever experienced losing a pet when you were young? Did you prepare some sort of funeral for her? Did you cry so hard that day that you went to bed weeping all night?
Have you ever flown a kite? You flew it so high that it soared to the sky to touch the heavens, however the sky became dark and the winds grew stronger that it snapped the string, letting your kite fly into the darkness.
Have you ever work so hard for your family? Did you ever sacrifice your personal happiness like having a family of your own just to be able to support a brother or sister to go to college?
Have you ever lost a friend? A friend so dear that you would eat at the same plate, do each other’s homework, perhaps attend the same school. You practically do everything together. You would never forget to celebrate each other’s birthday and you would even go to extremes like vouching for him if he gets caught by the teacher cutting classes to watch the latest movie downtown.
Have you ever ask God why he allows bad things to happen in one’s like? Things that you’re so frightened that you never cease praying at night that they do not occur because you could never bear the thought of it happening.
Losing something or somebody makes you feel sad, depress and hurt. You get more affected if this something or somebody means the world to you. The kind of affection that you’re willing to give a part of you just to have them back. When you lose them, you even call on God asking “why?”.
I lost a very dear person last Christmas; he took his life for a girl to prove how much he loves her. Personally, I could never imagine him doing this. For a brief moment, please, just ponder on this. He finished bachelor of Nursing, passed the board exam on his first try and seemingly he has a very good career ahead of him. He is somewhat tall, handsome, intelligent, and full of humor. He could have any girl that he likes.
So, why the hell would this person throw everything including his life just for the approval of one girl? Ain’t it enough to have a degree, good physical attributes and to top it, the love of his parents, his siblings and also the respect and love of his friends, hmmm? The person I am talking about is no other than younger brother who died on Christmas morning, the very day where most of the people would be at their homes celebrating Christmas while we were at the funeral, mourning this untimely passing of my brother.
I was devastated, I could not imagine, I could not accept. I go to Church, serve in a choir, and try to treat everybody well and good. So answer me this, is this fair? Do we deserve this?
I fondly recall the moments that I had with my brother. When leisure comes in my schedule, I would invite him to go out and drink a bottle or two. You know, we both have this passion or singing and we would play like critics on each other. We both are fun of watching cartoons and we often talk about them, he would tell me the new ones and I would share stories of the old ones. However, this is not always the case.
There are times that I need to pretend to be the know it all older brother. Do this and do that. Don’t do this and don’t do that. This is right and that is wrong. You might think that I do this to entertain myself but these things that I do is just to show him the decorum of things. I want to inculcate values and lessons on him, lessons that I painstakingly experienced when I was growing up. Life was not easy.
But you know what, I found out that my brother has his own ways on doing things. I cannot deter him from doing what he thinks and feel is right. He is “his own man”. Oftentimes, there is a “clash” between us. However, I would still be able to overpower and force my ways on him but inside me, I know my intentions are good. One time, I found my brother, crying at a corner, I think it’s because he did not get what he wanted over me. I know I was right and instead of offering an ear, I withdrew myself and stood firm on my decision.
Now that he is gone, it was those moments that I regretted doing, I wish I could have treated him differently. There is now a reversal of roles, I am now the one you’ll find at a corner crying whenever his memory pass me by. I wish we could have spent more time together as friends instead of brothers. One truth I learned from this is that when a love one leaves this life, you can no longer show how much love you have for that person.
I feel sorry for him, the life that he might have lived, the family that he might have had and countless possibilities that could have happen if he was still alive.
I feel sorry for myself, the memories, and the conversations that we might have had. The stories and adventures that we could have shared together as we both grew older.
He ended his life and took away from me the chance of redeeming myself for the shortcomings I have on him.
Everything back then was dark and gloomy. I try to shy away from people asking about the incident I just don’t wanna talk. I just wanna freeze time and forget what has happen but as my tears run dry and my mind opens up, I started to slowly accept the truth about the faith of my brother. I came to realize that there is nothing I can do that will bring him back and that everything that happened has a reason, a better purpose, and a brighter meaning.
I cannot reverse time nor change it. Life continues, we cannot stop or pause it, it keeps on going with or without us.
You might be puzzled why I can do this, this answer is easy, I started to offer the lost of my brother to God. I know that if I send this up to Him. He will give me the grace to accept it all. He will fill the emptiness in my heart, he will satisfy my thirst for answers, he will give me, my brother, and my family, the peace that we eagerly long for. I have entrusted all of these to God’s divine mercy, unconditional love and everlasting mercy and compassion.
“Faith is the way of holding onto what we hope for, being certain of what we cannot see”. “This is the confidence we have in approaching God. That if we ask anything according to His will. He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, what ever we ask, we know that we have what we asked of Him.” Heb 11:1 and John :14-15

the course of choice: the twilight zone

If you believed in one purpose, the worst feeling would be suddenly stepping out of it.

It's like those archaic twilight zone movies where the characters are in some other time,.

or Being John Malkovich,

or if you just came to a different time like 13 going on 30

or if you just became a different gender like She's the Man and Hot Chick. (or a different race, that would be "Hot CHinK")(ooppss korniks)hehehe

So many times it has been writen about, the fascination of displacement.

I know I'm not supposed to do this, but I checked my horoscope. (egad)
And it said I was suposed to be having fun with friends, but I totally flaked on them just to finish this,which as it turns out, I can't even do now.

So there was this opportunity. And there was the stars to show me. But I missed it.

Now I am living in my own choice of a world... and (egad).


Like most soaps, we will have to wait till the next episode, or next season, to see if this decision will have been the "right" one., and how have I changed my life with this one choice? (see sliding doors.. etc.)

so near....yet so far......

we wer so close to each other

about 3-5 inches far from each other

but still we didnt do anything...

we just sat there and stare at the floor...

who has the problem?

is it me?

or him?

or both of us...

will this end?

i hope so...

so i will be happy...

HAPPY ENDINGS....

"HAPPY ENDINGS don't happen instantly, relax.. and you'll begin to realize how everything seems to come your way, everyone do deserves LOVE and HAPPINESS, it just comes at different times for different people, but don't just sit wishing and waiting on the world to give you something wonderful, Live your LIFE to the fullest and it will become what you want it to be. Never lose HOPE nor FAITH, because someday you'll realize that all your struggles mean something.."

happily...*ever after* ... the real fairy tale

TODAY..I must say that things may be coming my way.

Today I can talk. I can smile with my heart at it. I just love myself and I care for it.

With a prayer that all of my hurt shall go and so it went and I'm happy. True love shall help me heal so that it will be worth the wait.

I prayed to GOD to give me what I deserve more than what I desire and now I don't know if this is it but I feel like being aware more than pretending. Are things going my way? I'm constantly praying that this time it will be consistent and endless. This time I just want to be worthy for someone who can be there for me. Who can stand by me. Today, I am just aware that there really are people who just wish you happiness and smile with you.

Today I must say that I am endlessly receiving the things that I have wished for. I thank all the people who gave me constant tapping on the back. Who gave me the warmth of their hugs. Thank you. Now, I feel like being into it so emotionally attached to the one who can promise me eternity exist and that love grows, commitment does conquer all.

When I was a child.. up to now. I have dealt with imaginations of fairy tale come true and only to find out .. to wake up one day.. and realize that it can be true?!

I prayed not for a guy who can be loyal to me but instead committed. I prayed not for a guy who can love me back but for a guy who can love me more and be consistent. I prayed for a guy who can secure my future but He gave me a guy who plans his future for me and that future wishes me to be the one.

Now, it's another version of patiently waiting…I shall wait if I want things not to end. If I want things as happily ever after…decision comes as it shall be firm and consistent for me to have the desires of my heart.

It shall be soon.. a happily ever after...

sort of year ender (sorry it came late) :p

everybody have had written a year ender by now.. but not me.. it got me thinking really hard on my highlights of the year.. like ano nga ba? haha! wait.. hmm..

**last year my father was diagnosed with stage 3 rectal cancer..
January 8 was the day when we came to cardinal santos general hospital and my father had his endoscopy for the second time..when the doctor came out of the endoscopy room she said we need to immediately confine my father for surgery..it was really hard for the whole family that time..but for all the prayers and help of friends and the whole family,after all the radio therapy and chemo therapy... my father survive...he had his CT scan last october and found out that there are no longer cancer cells in his body...the best thing that ever happened in my life for the whole year..

**was transferred from directTV to at&t
It was April first...the day i cant forget...i dont know if im going to cry or will be happy...tl ian told us we will be transferring from one account to another..he will be training for at&t warranty and we will be at at&t prepaid...that day was full of loneliness and frustrations...but then again after the pst and transition...finally we are still surviving...same team..same friends...only closer to each other...its really amazing how you can work and be happy with your co-workers at the same time....hope this 2010 will be a verry happy year for us as well....road may be rocky...but were still striving to survive..

**he broke up with me...
march of this year...heartaches is really the most painful thing in a womans life...i know i have written a lot about heartaches and broken hearted feelings and stuff...well its just that i really felt so miserable and so frustrated when you thought you have given everything you have to give and have done everything you have to do but you still end up being the looser in the end...well that's life...atleast now i know im stronger and wiser..hehehe were still friends though..good friends..we still play important part in each others lives..and when the right time and the right moment will come, who knows...dehvah?!

**met my highschool friends again after a very long time
novermber this year...i met up with my highschool bestfriends again....that time was full of happiness and enjoyment...after a very long time i saw them again...we had lots of things that we had talked about...although were not complete atleast we had fun..

**i bought an iphone!!
the highlight of my year 2009!!!after all the hard works,frustrations,heartaches,happiness and all emotions i can think of......its all worth it when im holding my new baby through my hands...i kinda still studying how it works until this very moment,but i think i will learn..in time..after all,,,patience is a virtue...hehehehe

**i had my hair rebonded and cut it like korean style wahihihi

finally i decided to have my hair rebonded..it was expensive right but im happy with the outcome..hehehe then after a week i decided to get a new look...so i went to a very expensive salon (pinagmayabang talaga) and got my hair cut like one of those korean hairs...well atfirst i thought im not happy with it but nung binati na ng lahat na napakaganda ng gupit ko..hehehe i felt proud and happy...atleast sulit ang mahal na binayad ko wahihihi

**bumming around

most of my year were spent watching back trax stuff.. series like: Samantha Who?,Dawson's creek,Charmed,Ali Mcbeal,Pushing Daisies (it got cancelled =X), How I Met Your Mother, Stargate Altantis (yeess! up on my sci fi geeky side), Life, Bones, Kyle XY and CSI

and albums!!! whee! nacomplete ko na ang pagdownload ng goo goo dolls, incubus and lifehouse ko haha.. finally.. =D im much more interested with acoustic versions or live than the original tracks heehee i don't have a song of the year this time but i'm pretty fixed to taylor swift and lady gaga songs...

and books!!! i was pretty glued with ofcoarse twilight mania with all the series...sydney sheldon books...and a friend named lester introduce me to bob ong humor...i cry, laugh, get angry, happy and learned a lot with those novels....old school is still the best..hehehe


waa almost 1 hr ko kinompose haha.. madami dami din pala hehe.. till the next year ender

happy holidays!!!

Oh really??

Is it December already?! (advance ako magisip)

GOSH..

that is not a sarcastic comment..

i repeat.. that is not a sarcastic comment

Can't feel the christmas season. Or is it just me? I'm not excited, really.

First because my Vacation Leave was cancelled(even if i filed it as early as september and up until now i still dont know whats the status of it since we just had an fgd with om last tuesday), second is i think ill be spending Christmas at the office for the first time in 27years history of my life because our schedule was change to 7pm instead of 4am(kamalas malasan sa lahat ng malas because our team was the lowest for bucket B skeds) huhuhu..third,all this rumors that 13th month pay is going to be late this time(san ako kukuha ng pangshoshoping ko?ayaw ko makipagsiksikan sa napakaraming nag rurush ng christmas shopping)...lastly, i think im going to have a white Christmas ( malamig ang pasko huhuhu)...hayzzzzz

Anyways-- back to the topic.. Even Christmas Trees doesnt bring out the Christmas spirit in me. Weird.. while every year the only holliday that i look upto was Christmas and New Year.. I had the reason to splurge on Peppermint coffee (but now im beginning to hate coffee's, i settle for coke instead hahaha) and to shop for gifts and Christmas outfit and stuff.. *sigh*

What's happening?

When did i become so...

DULL?!

i love this song by the kapamilyas...loyalista ako sa abs cbn hehehe

Fr.tel: "Ayoko ng tumawid sa WALANG TAWIRAN!"

Nung bago ako sa MAYNILA, nagtataka ako bakit napakadaming PED XING sa Kalsada.. akala ko nun para itong Espana Ave or Quezon Ave na napakahabang Avenue.

"Sh*t..ang promdi ko!!" yan lang yung nasabi ko nung narealize ko na pedestrian crossing pala ang meaning ng PED XING.. bakit pa kasi kelangan ishort cut.. hmmmm...

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Simula ng naging MMDA chairman si Bayani Fernando at nabalutan ng mga hot pink pintura ang buong Kamaynilaan.. napakadaming signboard na WALANG TAWIRAN NAKAMAMATAY..

pero..madami pa ding Tumatawid? bakit?

TANGA BA?

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Ako? katulad ni tel.. tumawid din sa WALANG TAWIRAN..

mahirap.

nakakatakot.

pero challenging.

at ang sarap ng pakiramdam pag nakatawid.

pero isang mali.. patay.

at wala kang pwedeng sisihin..dahil mey signboard!

hindi ka ba marunong magbasa?

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Ngaun? ala na ko balak tumawid sa WALANG TAWIRAN..

sa mey pedestrian line na.. para may BENTE na pangkape kapag nasagasaan.

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Masaya na ako dapat ngayon. Ang haba nga ng hair ko e.. natatapakan na.. pero takot na akong tumawid talaga. Hindi ko alam bakit.

sabaw

humahanga ako sa taong magaling magsalita,

hanga rin ako sa taong magaling magsulat.

pero kanino talaga ako mas humahanga?


ewan ko pa, basta naiinspire ako sa taong nakakpaginspire ng ibang tao.o diba ang daming inspire. basta ganun.sa ngayon gusto kong magbasa ng libro ni bob ong para mainspire din ako hehe. puro sabaw nalang yata kasi laman ng utak ko ngayon, wala na rin akong social life. pati yung kaibigan kong tawid lang ang pagitan ng office namin ay di ko na nakikita. hay buhay..


sana may bago ng libro si bob ong!!!


naisip ko lang siguro napepressure si bob ong magsulat ng magandang libro kasi madami na siyang taga hanga hehe wala lang.

Kung ako ay isang walang kwentang manunulat, english ang isusulat ko, para kahit anu anu ang sabihin ko hindi na nila mahahalata.. Kaya nga ako nagsulat sa tagalog para maintindihan ng mambabasa ang lahat ng sinasabi ko.---bob ong

si pogi at ang mga pangarap

Pangarap ko talagang maging manunulat, pero hindi ng mga makabuluhang nobela o anuman. Gusto ko lang sumulat ng simpleng libro, story book na pambata ganun. Simple pero may dating, ganun ang gusto ko. Pangarap ko rin na gumawa ng pelikula, oha! Ok lang naman mangarap diba. Mangangarap ka na nga lang, taasan mo na. Matagal tagal ko na ring nakalimutan ang pangarap na to, simula ng grumaduate ako sa kolehiyo. Naalala ko siya paminsan minsan pero iba pa rin yung may kasama kang nangangarap.


Balik sa kolehiyo:
May naging kakilala ako na itago nalang natin sa pangalang "pogi" dahil yun ang gusto niyang tawag sa kanya, Pano ko nakilala si pogi? Matalik na kaibigan siya ng kaklase ko nung first year, one year ahead siya sa akin. Ayun nagpakilalanlan, nagkasundo naman kami, lumipas ang mga araw at naging kaclose ko siya ang galing diba at dun na nagsimula ang pangarap namin...


Mahilig kaming magusap ng kahit ano, kahit makabuluhan o hindi. Natatawa kami sa mga simpleng bagay. Madalas kaming magdudugtungan ng mga kwento, minsan kami lang minsan kasama ang ibang kaibigan. Madalas din kaming sumulat ng kanta na tungkol sa mga biglaang pangyayari sa harap namin, tapos yung tono basta lang. Naguusap din kami ng mga pangarap namin sa telepono. Gusto naming mabasa ni Neil Gaiman at Paolo Coelho ang mga gagawin naming libro, tatalunin namin ang Little Prince at si Edgar Allan Poe. Ganyan lang kasimple ang mga pangarap namin. Pero simula nung nagstop siya magaral, di na kami nakakapagbonding.


Ngayon may trabaho na siya at bigtime na, ako may trabaho din pero di ako bigtime. Ngayong araw na to, tinawagan niya ako, after ilang taon na di paguusap. Naaliw ako at buhay pa siya, ganun padin siya, magulo, masaya. Marami siyang masasayang kwento. Nagusap ulit kami tungkol sa pagsusulat ng kwento, kinumbinsi niya akong magsulat ulit kami. Pero pano? hindi ko alam pero ang alam ko nabuhay na nanaman ang pangarap ko.


Salamat sayo pogi, sa pagiinspire sa akin, balang araw sisikat din tayo, matatapos din natin lahat ng kwentong sinimulan natin.

FALSE POSITIVE

I was hoping not to write the saddest line this moment..But if I do..please bare with me..

Kagabi pa ngpplayback sa utak ko ang kantang to..

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah

I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Yeah, how long must you pay for it?
Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Oh for it?

Madaming unanswered questions na ewan ko ba kung bakit paulet ulet na uniikot sa utak ko..Bakit ako ngsstay? bakit ako andito?

Humahanap sana ako ng magandang timing nung super happy pa ko para makapag-sulat ng inspiring blog but then again kelangan ko pa palang masaktan ulet para lang tumayo at hawakan ang keyboard na to. Actually, mahirap tumayo.. ayaw ko talagang kumilos pero ayoko ng pakiramdam ng quicksand.. hindi ko alam kung strong ba talaga ako o ngppretend lang ako katulad ng lage ko ginagawa.. Ok kahit hindi talaga!

Madaming beses na ko napunta sa scenario na nahihirapan ako at ang lagi kong ginagawa ay mag-escape at tumihimik nalang..pero bakit hindi ko magawa ngaun.. "Hands down ako sayu" can't make me feel better. Ewan, walang salita na makakapagpa-ok sa akin ngaun.

Mixed field agglutination: Galit na naiinis na hindi ko talaga maintindihan..sana galit nalang talaga ko para alam ko panu ihahandle tong nararamdaman ko.

Ayoko ng mag-isip kung anung distributing factor bakit ko na-miss ang pag-interpret na to.. False Positive!

just G and more!!!!

One cloudy afternoon on my favorite shirt and comfortable flipflops. Money on my pocket? waaa.. 2,000. Buddy on my side? tel kish, my shopping partner. Ready..get set go...

The search was like an adventure. kamiseta shirt, in all colors, particularly rainbow colors, R-O-Y-G-B-I-V. 500php vintage bayo shirt...hmmm..not on our budget. manels doll shoes..check! Gurly stuff, kikay bling bling...."ia..help us"! hmmmmmm...

after the shopping...my favorite stop... new york fries with crazy crepes. sweet and cold versus hot and salty....anything goes! Dont ever forget Caramel Frapp at starbucks..hehehe

End of our just G escapade... just girlbonding... until next shopping of the year tel... lets do it..monthly!

steady state theory

ganda ko dito syet!!! hahahaha

Blank...

Steady...

Ang problema ko ngaun ay wala akong problema. Wala akong maisip na dapat problemahin at talagang problema ito. Bigyan niyo nga ako ng dapat kong problemahin.

Hindi ko maintindihan bakit napaka-transient na ng kalungkutan sa buhay ko. Early this morning, nakita ko ang 'highschool' barkada ko pala ay ng-outing last time, di ko yun alam, kumpleto sila and all. Hmmmm, sad for 20 seconds tapos wala na ulit ako maramdaman. Nabubuhay nalang ako sa masasayang thoughts at nawiwirduhan ako dahil bakit di na ko nalulungkot...hahaha!

hahahahahahahaha!

unveiling ME!

It's about time to unlock my handcuff.

"prison-break"..

For sooo many years..wala na ako ginawa kung hindi magpaka-proper, trying to stand out, reaching everybody's expectations, at gawin ang tama. I've done enough to prove myself. Pagod na din ako na pilitin ang lahat ng tao to like me, to love me and to care for me. It's about time to unveil what's been hidden for so long.

good student..

Achiever..

Good girl..

Lahat yan pinag-hirapan ko.. though di ko naman nireregret ang mga nangyari.. I just want to enjoy now..

Party hard, Laugh like wala ng bukas, wear anything, shop til i drop, work like a professional, capture memories, lahat...

Eto talaga ako.. Rassel.. same me but happier and prettier..

*i love u boy... but i just love myself more... im sorry*

Rerebond ko ang buhok ko dahil gusto ko... uuwi ako ng umaga dahil dun ako masaya.. love me or hate me..problema niyo na yun..

Hindi na ko magpapaapekto sa chismis or sa mga sinasabi ng madlang people sa pagkatao ko... i know myself more than u do..

QUOTED QUOTE: "if u love me.. i'll stay in your heart.. if u hate me..i'll stay in ur mind"...sino ngaun ang mey problema??

So far..so good..contented..satisfied but still dreaming of things.. and making that happen.

this is my official LIGHTBULB MOMENT... I've never felt as cool as now.. chill.. peace and quiet..

I'm inlove with my work, with my friends, with my family and with everyone who loves me...

In few years..masmagiging mature ako..alam ko un..then eventually..when i look back.. makikita ko to..ang process ng aking awakening..

It's sooo goooood to be ME!

sana..NOON pa!

but then again...SWAK lang naman.. just on time..

selfish moments ko ngaun..pagbigyan niyo na.. chinecherish ko lang ang self-worth ko!

i-super-duper-mega-over-love-ME!peace!

ME by Paula Cole

my favorite song........

i cried last night!! :'(

Matagal tagal na din nung huli ako umiyak ng bonggang bongga! Kadalasan naluluha lang ako pag-nagmmouth wash lang ako ng Orahex na bawal i-rinse. Pero kagabi, naiyak talaga ako at ang sarap ng feeling...

"I was never your partner, I'm just your wife!".. Oo, sa hindi ko maipaliwanag na dahilan naiyak ako ng iyak talaga with matching hikbi nung pinanuod ko for the nth time ang 'Madrasta'. Mabuti nalang talaga at di ko inasam maging 2nd wife(flashback)!O sorry sa mga natamaan hahahaha

Nananahimik kasi ako, nag-ayang magkape ang pinsan ko. Ayan! Mulat ako hanggang madaling araw andami dami ko tuloy naisip.....

Mga magiliw kong tagabasa..alam kong kayo kayo lang naman ang nagttyaga sa blog ko.. ahaha.. parang gusto ko bumili ng professional camera.. Yun nalang muna hihingin ko na regalo kila inay at itay, dahil alam ko na kung pag-iipunan ko sa sswelduhin ko e baka lumpo na ko, lens palang nabibili ko. Kung matuto ako ng Photography bilang hobby, baka mabigyan ko ng hustisya ang tinatago kong pagka-artistic (maliban sa pagging ma-art-e!). Krishna, alam ko susuportahan mo ko dito..

Nung mejo nakakatulog nako.. nbasa ko text ni kish.. itinext ang address nia exactly 4:17AM! anak ng kalabaw.. 'SAN KA NA NAMAN GALING?' at eto pa nagaya pa kung gusto kong sumama para naman wala akong pasok ng alas onse ng umaga.... my gowsh....

sige na pasok na ko...seatshort yata hehehehe

bukang liwayway

Ending.

Kailan dapat tuldukan ang isang sentence? Kailan dapat tapusin ang isang salita? Kailan kailangang bumangon at muling tumayo?

Ang buhay ay parang isang mahabang inuman sessions. Doon, iinom ka.. magpapakasaya, iiyak, maaring magkaroon ka ng madaming kaibigan, maaring masira kayo. May mga bagay na isusuka ka, may mga bagay na pipilitin mong ilulon. Madaming mangyayari, may mga hindi mo inaasahan. Pero bukas pagkagising mo.. masakit ang lahat.. ulo mo, sikmura mo, atay mo, pati ang bulsa mo. Pero ang lahat ng iyan… nakukuha lang sa isang basong malamig na tubig, mainit na kape at mahabang tulog. Pagkatapos niyan tapos ang hang-over.

Pero ang buhay ay hindi ganun.. kapag nabigo ka, hindi ito parang hang-over na pwedeng palipasin nalang. Dahil ang tao ay pinanganak ng may puso at nakakaramdam.

Hemorrhage.

Kahit ilang beses ma-untog at magdugo ang ulo ng tao.. madalas hindi ito agad-agad natututo. Mauuntog, iiyak, iinom, mag-mmove-on.. pero for sure.. isang text lang yan.. siguradong maglo-load ka pa para makapag-reply. Mag-uumpisa ka na naman bigyan ng meaning ang smiley.. ang “muah”, ang “namiss kita”, ang “kumain ka na ba?”. I-ttextbrigade mo ang buong contacts mo para i-announce na nagtext siya ulet, na sweet siya ulet. At in the end… ganun na naman ulet.. din a natuto.

Wear my shoes.

“Wala ka kasi sa posisyon ko kaya kung makapagsalita ka akala mo alam mo na ang pinagdadaanan ko. “

Ito lang ang masasabi ko.. bakit ko pa kailangang danasin ang mga nadanas mo.. e umiyak ka na nga e.. gagayahin ko pa? ano ako tanga.. Sabi nga nila.. “intelligent persons learn from mistakes while wise persons learns from others mistake”. Masarap i-endure ang pain.. pero kung alam mo na na masasaktan ka? Bakit mo pa hahayaan ang sarili mo na mapunta doon. Kung magka-anak nga ng walang ama may paraan na… yun pa kayang pag-iwas sa sakit… lahat may paraan..kung gugustuhin.

Kaya pwede ba..wag mokong pa-andaran ng ganyan!

Emboli.

Kung nasasaktan ka man ngayon. Ikaw ang nagdala sa sarili mo sa posisyon na iyan. Hindi ako, o hindi siya. Dahil kahit pakitaan ka niya ng maganda.. kung alam mo kung saan ka naka-lugar.. hindi mo hahayaan na mahulog ka. Hindi mo hahayaan na magkumpol-kumpol.. mamuo at patayin ka ng simpleng bagay na iyan. Dati crush lang yan.. sigurado ako… pero inipon mo eh.. kaya ngaun.. Surgery na ang kailangan mo.

Aspiration..

Kung kaya lang sana talaga i-extract lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ng tao.. malamang nag-master ako ng phlebotomy. Isang sakit lang naman ang tusok at alam ko na tolerable iyon. Kahit itusok at ibaon pa ng madiin.. kung maalis naman lahat lahat lahat… 450ml na ang idodonate ko.

Anesthesia….

Malamig na bangkay. Temperature below negative 70 degrees. Hindi makaramdam. Patay. Walang buhay. Pale. Manhid. Safest way para iligtas ang sarili. Pansamantala. Mahirap maging manhid, lalo kung gusto mo ng kumawala pero wala kang magawa dahil ubos na ubos ka na. Wala kang maibigay dahil ikaw mismo alam mong ubos ka na. Parang kandila na wala ng mailuha dahil pudpod na. Gusto mo man magsukli.. pero pagtingin mo sa vault ng pera mo.. Bankrupt ka pala.

Trampoline…

Magtago ka nito sa bahay niyo. Effective. Alam kong sold-out na ang pride sa market. Kaya kung hindi ka man makabili ng pride… atleast may trampoline ka. Para san? Malaglag ka man.. siguradong magbbounce back ka. Kaya kung sasabihin mo na hindi mo sinasadyang mahulog… kapag meron ka nito… babalik at babalik ka sa dati mong posisyon. Safe.

Morning Dew.

Kasabay ng pagsikat ng araw. Bukas magiging ok na ang lahat. Ang pagsikat ng araw ay nangangahulugang bagong pag-asa. Tumayo ka… Hindi ang mundo ang gagawa ng paraan para maging maayos ang buhay mo. Walang ibang tutulong sayo kung hindi ang sarili mo. Alam kong marami tayong kaibigan.. pero ang kaibigan ay pader lang na masasandalan. Hindi yan solusyon sa problema mo. Dahil ang solusyon ay ikaw lamang at wala ng iba. Kaya… Move! Now!