.

Dear God,

I have been on a constant battle with my memories this year. I only wish that I can extinguish parts of it for they are making me regret all of it. I do not request for my own power, only for the task of elimination to be completed from your end.

See, more than two years ago, you planned for us to meet, me and him. Now he left me, and now I struggle. Every time I wake up, I wish I hadn't. Time will not heal this, because it simply can't. Again, see, you made me most forgiving, most patient. You made me always, always consider the good of others, with the least amount of doubt. Now, since I can't completely reconcile the facts -that I have already done my part, and waited for about a thousand hours for nothing to happen- I ask that a tampering on my library of things-remembered be done the soonest.

Take away the moments of happiness, spare nothing from those life-chapters. They must as valuable as television show scripts. We never physically spent those together anyway.

Please do not offer an alternative, and please do not make me different from my easily-fooled self. Just erase the cause of the misery of this recent past, the thousand promises broken, each forgiven by this selfless soul. You must know that I don't love him anymore, after almost half a year of throwing questions at absent ears....

When you've made good with my favor, do not stop me from making the same mistake again with him....


yours truly,
Rassel

♥The saddest song ever written.. And the most beautiful..♥