there's something about being up in the sky that just sends me up higher.
i love being on airplanes, watching land and everything on it start looking like Barbie people, shrinking into Polly Pocket folk, become little ants and eventually, simply fade away. i like how the scope of what you can see gets bigger and bigger as you go up higher. in a sense, being up in the sky makes feel sooo big that in the end, i always feel so humbled, so small. am i making sense?
i like how i feel so light going up in the air as if the land i was leaving contained everything that weighed on my chest and i was flying away from it. i like how my heart crunches just a little bit and a big bit everytime i leave land behind.
land is what i truly know. i am a child of the earth. i was born upon soil, and my connection with its spiritually grounding and humbling nature and everything that resides upon it is one that always pulls a little on my heartstrings everytime we say goodbye. its a bit like saying goodbye to my mother's womb, i reckon.
but i love the sky, i do. on land, you think about how alone you are and it doesn't quite sink in because there is already too much to see, that more often that not, ,what should have felt like being ALONE seems more like LONELINESS.
up in the sky where only those with wings can float upon its waves of white puff, you feel alone but somehow, loneliness does not quite creep in. loneliness is a feeling based on UN-loneliness, i think; while alone is... just alone. up in the sky where you are nothing to nobody, you have no one left to be but yourself. i like that.
i love the sky because its the closest i get to everything, really. i love the sky because its the closest i get to the stars, to the infinite. i love the sky because, as i leave all the people whom i have ever interacted with, people who have formed big and small opinions of how i am as a person, its the closest i actually get to
ME
