delightful

Written on May 26, 2008 – 8:44 pm | by rassel

actually i’m not sure if my inner-self is delightful. but as each day passes i am beginning to feel at semi-peace. trying to convince and convey myself that i am not and have not been on the same page as the rest of the world for i’ve been traveling on my own wave. which seems to be unbalanced, never fixed on an equilibrium, but has taken form of oscillation. either that or everything around me is fixed and i’m the indifferent one. have not felt my space of being in my element. not sure why i’ve lost recognition and having the sense of displacement at the moment. i guess i can try to be optimistic about things but my mind sometimes doesnt work that way. neither does my heart. i’m bitchy, simple yet very complex, sorry! i really want my heart and mind to be aligned with each other but its a hustle. i sometimes do not understand myself. anyhoos, had the opportunity of a lifetime to meet and reconnect with an old friend. how i miss those days of drunken bliss and "drink your damn problems away". times have changed. realized this day that my body doesnt have the audacity to intake as i use to. maybe being twenty-six and partying your life out when you were much younger takes its toll and everything is just played out. or we got to face the facts and say "we’re fuckn getting old. time to retire!" cheers, bitches. i’m overdue.